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i have been hanging in there--the cough went away and made a speedy return so that's pretty you know, awesome.
i went to class, lab, and class today and will spend the rest of the day napping, eating, cleaning, and studying, hopefully not all in equal amounts. i do have a lot of work to do.
my goal is to be in bed by midnight, and also to do some yoga and weights to tone today. but uh, i wonder if i will get anything done at all. sometimes i surprise myself with all the laziness i can produce to fill a day.
i am less lonely and sad than i was before. see facebook pictures.
and really the workload is so acute that between talking to colin a couple times a day in brief spurts, working, running to things, and going out once a week with people whom i see regularly in class, it's very difficult to focus on being sad. hooray! i have tricked my morose little brain.
time to finish cleaning and DO SOME WORK
xo
p.
ps mood of the day via ray caesar painting! very overwhelmed in the brains.

well i am dealing with packing, neurotic parents who are in a fight and possibly their final one, divorce pending. this means i dont really know what my packing schedule is like...whatever its their issue i just want to move in an organized way already!
had a send off and have been rushing around wrapping things up socially and otherwise.
pulled my back so moving is not progressing that fast. i panicked about that briefly but whatever...<input ... ></input><input ... >
my parents might actually sac up and get a divorce THIS TIME. my dad has lyme disease wtf? i just want my back to stop hurting PUKEFACE.
current mood:

haven't in awhile.
i got my georgian style columbia studio apartment right on campus. BOO YEA! i move in august 25th. which leaves me with just under 2 months in boston. terrifying and exciting.
finally charged my camera. happy fourth! pictures of whatever happens today to follow.

mmph i'm so lazy.

i feel the most depressed after working out...i thought it would be the opposite. 
it says i'm 151.5 lbs on the scale at the gym, which is hilarious compared to the ouija board scale we have at home that wildly oscillates from infinity to zero. im not too concerned since i really want to tone up and eat healthy. whatever spare weight im not supposed to have will burn off or turn into muscle.
it's pretty damn hard to do 1500 calories a day, so i've sort of plateaued easily at 1600-1700. better to do something you're comfy with, with consistency, than freak out and hate myself because i can't do it or something. without too many indulgences, 1600 is really all the food i need a day. and i do like my glass of wine in the evenings, which is a 100/150 or something like that.
it's interesting to notice the change in my endurance. suffice it to say i was a huffer/puffer for the first two weeks and then found myself running through entire shitty Prodigy songs. shut up! it works.
my arms have more definition and less of those interesting "wings" o' fat that i had been getting. plus i just feel like a badass lifting weights with my tattoo.
i cant say badass without thinking of: